Rose's English Blog

 A real moment in my life that felt like the beginning of a powerful story was when my stepdad got arrested for the first time. I was very young, 5-8 at the oldest, he was/is an alcoholic and became a horrible person while under the influence. I remember having to barricade my door with a huge dresser while my brother, my mom, and I all hid with our dog. When he was arrested that night I knew things would never be the same for me ever again. I knew he would get out soon enough and come right back to us. And that is exactly what happened and continued to happen all the way up until now. Over the years through many arrests and him having to be hospitalized, I grew aggravated with him and my mother, for staying in the situation that they're in. But within that, I grew to become more independent, and learned how to stand up for myself and others in dangerous situations. 

 If I had to write a poem about my life at this current moment, it would be about choices. I am faced with many difficult choices nowadays that follow me and impact me in ways I never imagined. Choosing to ignore or accept the hurt I feel in order to move on no matter how hard it is. Fighting mental battles trying to get up each morning and choosing to push myself regardless. Simple choices made can have a greater effect than what was once intended. 

 When I am in a mood that I do not like, some strategies that I use to change my mood are, drinking tea, lighting a candle, doing a word-search, or writing about it. I have to identify how I am feeling and recognize the fact that I need to take a step back from it. 

 My personal approach to creativity is to use personal experiences and lessons to create whatever you feel you need to. I try to put myself into the piece that I am trying to complete, showcasing myself as a person through my work without having to explicitly state it. That makes the project all the more personal and can make others see that as well, or it can often make them see certain things within themselves as well. My favorite project that I completed was a personal writing task that I made for myself. It was a psychological horror short story that used real aspects and effects of trauma to push the story along, making the tale feel intense and real despite being nothing more than a made up story. 

 The vocabulary word that I find most resonates with me personally is "livid." I have heard the word and experienced the feeling all throughout my childhood as well as my life now. I was what people think of as the "angry daughter" of the family. The smallest thing would make me absolutely lose my mind. People would walk on eggshells around me for the worry that I would blow up at them. This was when I was younger and I have since grown out of this. 

 A place where I feel most at peace is in the city of Atlanta, specifically in Piedmont park when it is dark outside. I grew up going to the park a lot so it reminds me of when I was younger.